muy sorprendido de aprender que es domingo

• i’ve been sick all week
  • that’s so common now
  • swollen throat and an ear infection (the hole in my right ear means anything that happens in either spreads to the other)
• Christmas celebrations were making me sad. distant anytime anyone asked me what i was doing.
  • i don’t go back to the place I was born
  • made Christmas dinner the last couple years
  • don’t know what Christmas is meant to be alone in blackheath
    • but I do like Christmas
      • the idea of making the darkest and coldest days of the year the warmest and brightest
  • if i think of it as navidad instead, that frees it from the tyranny of the past
  • • i’ve got a poinsettia and I’m making pozole and i’ve invited some wood and tin animals to stay
      • i live in a taqueria and that’s my business
• if anyone wants any Chamoy Liquid hit me up, I accidentally have about 1.4 litres of it (three 475ml bottles) and want around 0ml (zero 475ml bottles) of it
• some dude on a train handed me a note on a folded up betting sheet as I was getting off at my stop
  • I did not like it
  • it said “I Really ❤️ Your Pink Hair. text me. I’m single and ready to mingle. ahaha X” and featured a phone number and a name
  • I was wearing a beanie and sunglasses and a pink medical mask. literally none of my face was visible. they want to mingle with my hair? my large unappealing impractical body?
  • I will simply never use the train again
  • I am double and not looking for trouble
• anyway, i hope you are well (I am not)
• if I think of all the different meanings of the word “present” and try to hold them all at once I overheat